I know I haven’t been doing these lately, and you know why. But this is going to be a little on the long side. Vanessa, my dearest. You are my sunshine, you’re my everything. Things have been up and down, lately. Things haven’t been as great as we could hope, but you need to know I love you. I always will. I’m sorry I’m not around much, but I’m trying to be. I really am. I know it’s hard I know it’s hard. I miss you more than you’ll ever know. I’m sorry I can’t get online, and I’m sorry we hardly talk, but I am doing all I can. I’m keeping the cell phone up to date, and trying so hard not to get in trouble at the home. But that’s not the point, the point is, Vanessa. I love you. I truly do, and I’ll be here, as much as I can, whatever you need, anytime at all. Just call, or text you know how to contact me, and you know I don’t care about sleep. I’ll always answer. Always be here for you. I want you to know, I’m so glad you’ve been going out and doing things, because you really do deserve to be out having fun. I hope you’re getting everything you want, from life right now. And I’m sorry for being shitty sometimes, I know it seems like I don’t care sometimes. You just need to remember, darling I love you. I always have, always will, forever and a day. I’ll try to start keeping this updated again, and I’ll be on as much as I can. We’ll pull through this, we always do. It’ll be okay, and you need to smile more. Alright? It’s good for you. Plus it looks absolutely gorgeous on you. You’re beautiful, remember that. You really truly are. I love everything about you. You’re not too skinny, and you’re definitely not fat. You have the most gorgeous smile, and the prettiest eyes, weather you’ve got the contacts in or not, it looks good both ways. It doesn’t matter what you wear, you always make it work. You’re beautiful Vanessa. You’re perfect to me, and I hope you can be happy, I really do. I hope I can make you happy, and make everyday special for you. I love you Vanessa. Never forget it.